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72 Hours of Fear, then RELIEF!

I started bleeding on the way home from John’s jazz band concert Saturday afternoon. It worried me, since I hadn’t had a period in years and my labs had been in the post-menopausal range for two consecutive years. But I was too exhausted and in too much pain to really give it any thought that day. I’d had a really demanding week physically and mentally. A lazy week compared to my pre-constant pain life, but really tough compared to my current isolated, in bed twenty out of twenty-four hours life.

The next day the bleeding was heavier. I stayed in bed all day. But I used my iPad to Google possible causes for vaginal bleeding after menopause. When I didn’t find any answers I liked I started selecting my own causes and Googling them. “Hypertension causes vaginal bleeding” – improbable stuff like that. Then I pulled up a medication app on my phone and checked every medication I’m on to see if any of them could cause vaginal bleeding, even though none of my meds have changed in six months. All that was left was the answer to my very first search: Uterine Cancer.

Monday the flow seemed lighter, so I put off calling my doctor. I shaved my legs and did my nails, just in case. When my hair was mostly dry I put it in a sock bun. Out of the way for procedures, still looks nice when it comes out of the bun later. I don’t care what anyone tells you: Medical professionals appreciate a well-groomed patient. Then I made the call and they arranged an ultrasound for today.

After the ultrasound the nurse practitioner assured me that not only did I not have cancer, but that the bleeding was just a rebound effect from having my IUD removed a month ago.  She said to call if the bleeding kept going or stopped and then returned, but clearly did not expect that to happen.

I called my husband with the good news from the parking lot. I’d prepped him for bad news since I thought is was inevitable. His voice was shaking when he answered, as I’m sure mine was just a few minutes earlier.

So I now have shaved legs, OPI Cajun Shrimp nails, and my tummy is full of celebratory hamburger. I think that went well!

See other takes on this week’s writing prompts at Mama Kat’s.

Angie’s Latest Addiction

How’s this for a conversation piece? A stiletto chair!

My mother-in-law was one of my best friends. Not many people can say that. In fact, when Michael and I were dating we’d go to see his family about 80 miles away a couple of times a month. He’d hang out with his brothers (except the eldest, who was in the Air Force and stationed 3 hours away) and his dad.

I’d hang with his mom. We’d go shopping. But not the shopping I was used to. We went to thrift stores, consignment shops, and places where we risked drive-by shootings, having hubcaps stolen, or contracting a disease if the items we bought were not properly sanitized. It was awesome.  We’d also hit yard sales – she’d haggle, I was afraid to. We’d go to auctions and estate sales. She rocked it, but I was afraid of over-bidding on something that wasn’t worth it. I tend to be competitive (duh) and get caught up in the moment.

Estate sales make me exceptionally emotional, especially when there are clearly no heirs because sentimental items are up for sale. If there are military medals I will empty my checking account to make sure no one hot-glues those to the butt of a department-store mannequin as an anti-war art piece.

Leaving the hospital the other day I was honored to hear a young veteran and an elderly veteran thanking each other for their service. I’d have been ugly-crying, snot and everything, so I took the stairs down. Incredibly painful, had to stop at every landing and take an extra pain pill and sit a while before I could get to my car in its handicapped spot. But the men were having a moment, and I didn’t want to ruin it.

Anyway, I’ve found a way to bid in estate sales online in my jammies. YES! the site is EBTH.com, which stands for “Everything But The House”. Clever, right? But here are a few caveats:

~Click the “Sales” button and only bid on things in or very near your city. I won something in my hometown and the pick-up was less than 48 hours later with only a 4-hour window. We only have one car that we can trust to get out of the county and back again, and my husband would be using it that day as part of his 6-day work-week. My super-sweet step-dad stood in line forever to pick it up for me, so I totally owe him a dessert. He likes strawberry-rhubarb if you have any suggestions!

~Click on the details of the listing. If it says “Blue Ash, OH” anywhere, DO NOT BID. This means the seller has paid to send their stuff to Ohio rather than divulge their nearest major city and state. If you are in or near Cincinnati, OH you can get some GREAT deals this way. Otherwise, don’t bid. Shipping will be ten times your bid – if you’re lucky. They throw these into random auctions, so BUYER BEWARE.

Otherwise, have fun! sign up and follow a few things all the way to the end to see how it goes. There are fabulous items, and even auctions where you’ll want everything (or maybe that’s just me!) I’m using it as a source for Christmas gifts for hard-to-buy-for people. Well, I’m trying! Here are a few random items I saw:

NO ONE has this. It’s the perfect gift for the stressed-out executive. Atlas holding the world on his shoulders (employees can’t name him, then fire them) and you twirl the art-glass globe so that every time you look through the eyepiece it’s different. Brilliant and beautiful.

Mexican folk art candle holder. I love folk art. I’m not telling you the name of my favorite artist, because I don’t want anyone outbidding me. If I get something I’ll share. You can set searches so that you’ll be notified if an item you want comes up for auction – sweet!

Architectural salvage I don’t have to ruin my shoes or break my back to get? Yes, please!

Neutral Chanel cork slides? I swear, if I didn’t live in my jammies I’d be all over these!

Diamond ring set in platinum with baguettes. Look at the wear on the prongs. An antique. You can even tell from the wear that the woman who wore it never took it off. This is a piece of history a true romantic would give to the woman he’ll love forever. Yes, there’s a reason I don’t go to live auctions. I’m incredibly sentimental!

2017 Resolutions and Prayers


2016 wasn’t a great year for me. There were some fantastic moments (like finding out I was going to be a grandmother!) but there were a lot more days full of frustration, anger, pain, and depression. I ran across my list of 2016 resolutions the other day and realized I hadn’t achieved any of them. With some I’d even moved further from my goals. So my 2017 plan will be completely different.

— 1 —

I will care my myself as I would a daughter, sister, or beloved friend. Remember the Golden Rule from Sunday School? “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” That’s great for little ones, but when we are adults we need to stop the negative self-talk. I won’t call myself fat, lazy, or selfish. I’ll think about what I would say to someone I loved if they felt that way. And I’ll pray for help seeing myself in a different light and making changes where I can.

— 2 —

I will accept my limitations. I can’t stand for more than fifteen minutes. I can’t sit for more than thirty. That’s on a good day. Taking a shower feels like what running a 5K used to feel like. I’ve got a new medication patch I’m cautiously optimistic about, but even with insurance it costs as much as a week of groceries. So I’m using it sparingly. My disease process is never going to get better, only worse. Hence the first word: Degenerative. I can only hope to slow it, because at the rate it’s going I won’t be able to bend my spine at all by the time I’m sixty. So I’m going to paraphrase St. Teresa and try to do small things with great love!

— 3 —

I will stay authentic. When I was having a bad day earlier this month I posted on FaceBook. Yes, I’m one of those people who shares both happy and sad moments on social media. I’ve been accused of “airing dirty laundry” on FB, but nearly all the comments I got on this post mentioned something about how “genuine” or “authentic” I was. There is no higher praise as far as I’m concerned. I refuse to be caught up in other people’s lies. Perhaps I have just worn out my filter after all these years working with doctors, but I enjoy being honest in all my interactions. Perhaps that will keep me from earning a Lexus selling Nerium with my husband, but I don’t think so. It may take me longer, but I know I’ll have earned it honestly and made no promises I can’t keep.

— 4 —

I will count my blessings. I keep a prayer journal, but in the warm months my entries are sporadic. If I feel up to it when the dogs want a potty break at 8 a.m. (my first pain med and muscle relaxer are at 6 a.m.) then I’ll stay up to check email, and perhaps have breakfast. But on a stormy or cold day I may need some time to make my way out from under the covers after seeing to the fur-babies’ needs. In the winter I always need my Happy Light, and that’s a great time to write in my prayer journal. Blessings I’m thankful for first, then prayers. I want to make this a habit every day, not just the hardest days.

— 5 —

I will continue writing. Again, it’s difficult with my physical limitations to write a blog post, let alone a novel. But I enjoy it, and it’s an outlet for my creativity. Hopefully once I’m ready to publish my books people will enjoy them. Being able to entertain others would make me incredibly happy!

— 6 —

I will become more organized. This one is going to take lots of prayers for patience on my part. Having my life, my home, and my thoughts disorganized is incredibly frustrating to me, and only worsens my depression. But spending hours sorting and dumping things, re-copying from one calendar to another, etc inevitably leads to me overextending myself and ending up writhing in pain in my bed for a day or two. Even after all these years I still need to use my timer every single day or I pay the price.

— 7 —

I will simplify my life. All the “stuff” that surrounds me is distracting and anxiety-provoking. Living simply will be easier, healthier, and much more rewarding in the long run. Yes, I’m going to finally buy the “tidying up” book that I’ve had in my Amazon inbox for forever. Or perhaps I’ll see how long the wait is at the library. That would force me to read it promptly to avoid late charges 😉

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